Welcome to our blog! Many of you know that Marcus and I were married on March 13th. Many of you do not know that we have been trying to have a baby since March 13th! After a few months of trying, I found out I was pregnant on June 10. We were both so excited! Shortly after finding out I was pregnant I began to have some problems. After two trips to the emergency room, four sonograms, and many more doctors’ visits, I began to miscarry. On July 5th, I had to have a D&E to remove the tissue. We were devastated! It seemed to get harder as time went on. We had to wait three months before trying again. After waiting those three LONG months I couldn't get pregnant. It seemed like it would never happen. There were pregnant women everywhere I went. I felt like everyone around me was pregnant. It was the hardest 6 months of my life. My sister Michelle, who I love very much, is pregnant and due the same time I would have been due. I would see her growing belly and cry. It broke my heart that I couldn't be around my own sister. There were so many days I would stay on my couch crying ALL day. My sister Julie, who also went through many of the things I have (and more), helped me so much. Just having her there crying with me, telling me she has been where I am, telling me my feelings are normal, and telling me IT WILL happen seriously saved me! Throughout the whole time of wanting a baby I would pray to God that I would get pregnant soon and have a healthy baby. As time went on I started getting angry. I would question why I wanted a baby SO bad and couldn't have one. I began to realize that I was getting angry because MY plan for a baby wasn't working out. I then started praying that God gives me a baby when he sees fit and to help me get through the pain of wanting a baby so bad. I would repeat in my head, "God has a plan...It will happen when it is suppose to happen" a million times a day. Shortly after, we found out I was pregnant. We were so excited and nervous. After having a miscarriage it kind of takes away the innocence of the pregnancy. There is always that fear it will happen again. We have taken it one day at a time and celebrate each day the babies are healthy. Yes...I said babies! We are having twins! We found out I was pregnant on December 17th and we found out we are having twins on December 30th. We couldn't be happier. Looking back on the last few months and everything we have been through together I wouldn't change any of it. It has made our marriage so much stronger. Marcus has been my rock. He has never lost hope. I am so thankful that he put up with me and never gave up. As of right now I am about 8 weeks pregnant and already starting to show. : )
Here is a video of when I told my parents we are having twins!!! Makes me laugh everytime I watch it!
